Is it your life urge or your death urge ?
Have you been there: those times when you can’t even bring yourself to get out of bed? Ending up in a cycle of resistance – later – tomorrow – I just don’t want to….?
Today was one of those mornings for me.
I woke up around 4.45 am. My body was ready to jump out of the bed. But not my mind. My mind was fighting my body, listing all the excuses it could find:
“it’s too cold, too early, too boring – everybody else is still sleeping – life is boring – life doesn’t make any sense anyway, so there’s no point in getting out of bed”!
The battle went on until around 7 am.
At points, it was even funny to observe the cycle of battle.
One thought was leading to another – trying to build logic from nonsense.
Does this sound familiar to you?
Are you sabotaged by your own resistance sometimes?
Morning or during the day?
In rebirthing terms, we call this cycle the acting out of the death urge. Freud called it the death wish.
Thoughts and emotions against life – acted out as sabotage, resistance, non-action.
The suppression of action, movement – this is actually a suppression of life.
It leads to a loss of enthusiasm, of excitement, of creativity, of self-expression
No wonder low energy, depression, numbness, fogginess is the result of it – to name just a few consequences of this death urge.
Become friends with Your Life!
Have you asked yourself: why do you resist life?
And even if you wanted to be more engaged, what makes it so heavy? Like weight lifting?
“It is challenging” the mind might say.
“It is painful” the heart might say.
“It is separation” the experience might suggest.
“It is tiring” the body might say.
“Life don’t work out for me” argues the death urge.
But life does not work out for you, because you’re resisting it.
Life works out if you’re engaged in it. You commit to making life work – and it will work it out for you.
But you think it goes the other way – you expect it to work out before you commit.
‘No, says the death urge. I know what I am talking about. There is no point in being more engaged. It sucks to be here. I talk out of experience!”
‘What kind of experience are you referring to?’ asks the life urge.
‘You know. All those experiences where you felt hurt, neglected, rejected, abandoned, let down. I am telling you, the whole “life” thing doesn’t make any sense. What is the point of being engaged when all you get out of it is pain? That is why you don’t want to get out of the bed in the morning…..what for?’ says the death urge.
A way to clear out those experiences from your body, transforming the death urge into life urge by listening, acknowledging, accepting the pain. To shift it through forgiveness in to love and belonging.
What if there is a way to move forward? Quite straightforward way.
Acknowledging what is. Accepting that continuing with the same attitude will bring the same outcome. Reaching out for help. Healing the past. Starting afresh.
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